Sense/Senseless/Senselessness

"The din rose in the vast room. the line under I Want to Be Fucked Senseless was so long that portable toilets had to be added and a minister brought in for deaths, births, and marriages on the line. Over under I Want to Fuck Senseless - no one, a pile of guns. A hollow roaring filled the enormous gym. More and more people began to move over to Want to Be Fucked Senseless. The line snaked around the gym, the stadium, the whole town, out into the fields. More and more people joined it, until Fucked Senseless stretched across the nation in a wide belt like the Milky Way, and since they had to name it, they called it the American Way."
- "The Solution" Sharon Olds

In Stanley Kubrick's final film Eyes Wide Shut, there is a scene in which the main character, Dr. Bill Harford has found his way into a completely bizarre sex orgy in the mansion of some billionaire. First of all, i should back up and say that he has gone on this adventure because his wife has just revealed that not too long ago she had a thing for a naval officer and would have given up her extraordinarily comfortable life and love for Bill and their daughter to have even one night with this other man, had he only asked; but luckily (?) he was called away before anything was physically consummated. So here is Dr. Bill, out on the town and thinking about revenge, which he is determined to physically consummate.
An old friend who plays the keyboards blindfolded at these sex functions has reluctantly given Bill the address and password to the orgy. Bill arrives in appropriate attire, a black cloak and mask, utters the password and is admitted. He finds the beginning ceremony underway, many people in black cloaks and masks gathered around watching one person in red cloak lead a circle of people in black cloaks through some kind of purification ritual, the old friend is playing to a track of spooky backwards chanting. (Someday I will record this and run it backwards to hear what is being said.)
The circle which was being purified stands and drops their cloaks. They are all gorgeous women (everyone is wearing masks). Their figures are almost a caricature, so exaggerated. Their legs are as long as an interstate, their asses buoyant like derigibles, their breasts so perky, like their nipples are looking God in the eye. One by one they are sent off; they will select one of the cloaked people in the room and go with them to fuck or be fucked senseless elsewhere in the mansion.
We have Bill, whose trust in his marriage has been shattered, in this totally foreign environment which promises unknown heights of sexual pleasure. Although everyone is wearing a creepy mask, Bill is sticking out like a sore thumb. One of the women from the purified circle selects Bill and as she leads him away, to what he thinks will be glorious sex, says something like, "I dont know what you think you're doing here but you're in great danger and you must get away immediately." He stays anyway, his escort is called away, no glorious sex, not with her anyway, but people are getting fucked senseless everywhere he looks.
A man leads him to a room and there is the man in the red cloak. Bill is caught, he is in big trouble, but the woman who tried to warn him steps in to 'redeem him.' He is allowed to leave and is threatened into secrecy. A lot of weird stuff happens over the next 24 hours, he fears for his safety as well as the old friend who granted him access to these people, and the woman who stepped in for him.
He is called to see a very rich friend, it so happens he is a member of this group and knows everything that has been happening. When Bill asks what happened to the woman who redeemed him, the rich man says she got her brains fucked out and then they drove her home, which is what would have happened anyway.
So why is everyone in Olds' poem having difficulty finding someone to fuck them senseless? I think the issue is trust. The setting for this sex orgy in Kubrick's film is so forbidding. Even if Bill wasn't reeling from his wife's revelation, this setting combines most of the things I am personally mistrustful of, which include old money people, people wearing masks, people in masks doing rituals, backwards singing, gorgeous women who are sexually excited by mansions, even fomality. Perhaps they get so far from trust that trust is inevitable. Like midnight, 12am, 11:59pm is as far from midnight as you can get and then there is another midnight.
Maybe these rich people have found another midnight, and there they can fuck each other senseless. But they protect this trust, which is essentially a fountain of youth and verility, with extreme distrust, violence and paranoia... informed paranoia, well-organized paranoia.
"Over under I Want to Fuck Senseless - no one, a pile of guns." Violence, invisibility.
These are rich people, rich men i assume, and kept women. The woman who stepped in for Bill was a former Miss New York. I am incredibly trusting myself, and I think paranoia naturally comes right along with trust, because one wants to trust, one wants to believe. One wants to believe that Everything that is said could be true. Conspiracy? Yes. Does old money conspire? Sure, probably. "...they called it the American Way." Human nature, sharing/hoarding the toys.
So why cant just anybody get fucked senseless? Perhaps that kind of trust is hoarded, and to try and gain access to it, you put your life and the lives of your loved ones in danger?
I dont know.
What exactly is this senselessness? I suppose i must allude to another movie, the Matrix, and back to my own clock analogy, maybe we are all so far from senseless, we are all 11:59pm, maybe there is another senseless right over there. Maybe senseless is a breakdown in our awareness, i believe the scientologists (famously scientologist Tom Cruise stars in Eyes Wide Shut) try to get at the fundamental neuroses of an individual and reverse them. Such a cured individual is called a 'clear'. Perhaps if we were clear, we would be without this 'sense' that our neuroses have prescribed for us, we would be able to interact with each new stimulus without prejudice.
I once went to the trouble to figure out how i define certain words that people use. Among my contemplation were 'have sex', 'make love' and 'fuck'. I decided that when people fuck, the fucker is taking something and the fuckee is giving or losing something. So, to be fucked senseless, to give or lose this neurotic awareness, no wonder the line for fuckers, to adopt someone's skewed universe is unoccupied. In Kubrick's film, the fuckers go to great lengths to pre-skew the universe, perhaps this really is a great protection for them.
Perhaps this is why an artist or anybody might 'go crazy', their universe is skewed, something somewhere somehow has fucked them senseless. Perhaps 'common sense' is hell.